Happy New Years!!!!

I love you I love you I love you I love you
I'm going to miss you this New years!
I have to work new years eve. so new years at around 12:00pm...
i would just be getting out of work
and im going to be driving home :(
so theres not going to be much of a new years for me
but i want you to have fun
dont drink anymore of my tias wine!!!
and dont let Agus :)
i really really really really really really really really
wish i was there. :(
I love you (did i say it too much?)
i love you (now im sure i have)
ilove you i love you i love you
(overkill)
take care i hope i get to talk to you soon

love your cake

R.I.P THE REV :c

my dear beloved James Owen Sullivan (February 9, 1981 – December 28, 2009),

oh god this is so sad already a year with out you my love! you were one of the happiest band members you were very cheerful,and had a very big heart u were truly one of the best drumers that ever lived u started young and still needed to live a long journey TT^TT

wow

this guy takes him plushies verywhere i mean it!
he treats him as humanshttp://wearebearz.com/

WHY DO U WANNA KNOW THE FUCKING TITLE U PIECE OF SHIT!

ugh u fucking bitch :C

Grinch ;)

Grinch never did love Christmas because his heart was small as shit and didn't have anything to love.  My hearts as big as a fine delicious ghetto booty and love for all tha niggas.  :-o Christmas was fun.  I got to see my dads family and although not everyone was there we really had a very nice time.  I slept in my red blanket :) I ate some jamon.  I watched a shitty movie.  And I got to see people I rarely see.  It was my cousin Jesus and my grandmas birthday.  We sang for them. In English and Spanish.  And I gave my cousin Jesus his bday titty twister followed by the ass grab hug.  Good times. We all had a nice time.  But the thought of not having my little mexico/calexico cousins with me made me sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
sad sad sad sad I needed my JADINE  :'( When It came time to go to sleep and I pulled out that red blanket.. :'(  <<<My Jawdeh wasn't there! AWWW I missed you buddy.  I hope you had a good time.  I hope you had fun with everyone.  And I hope you tell me all about it.  Christmas isn't really Christmas if your not with the one you want to be.  :(  But as always I know you're always with me.  I had a tamal and I bite the fork just for you :)  Take care you little monster :)
I love you

Frijolin Pedorin
Pancake

1. omfgxDomg hahahahahhhaa david u make the wierdest vid
2. david i love your x-mas video(ilgys face is epic)my face was like all retarded but oh well 

xD!im so getting a shirt!

u.u

what if i were gone?
what if u dont want me there by your side?
what if i never existed?
what if id never loved you?
what if i never belonged  here?
what if i lost you?
what if you hated me with all your might?

what if died....how would u react?would u be happy i  was gone? would it even make a difference like it does right now?would Ive been missed by someone?would it hurt,WOULD IT HURT you..would it hurt anyone?
what would life be with out me?would it be the same?would it change the way people acted?

Did I drive you away?

I know what you'll say.

You'll say, "Oh, sing one we know"

But I promise you this,

I'll always look out for you.

That's what I'll do. 

And sing "oh"

I'll sing "oh"

My heart is yours.

It's you that I hold on to.

That's what I'll do.

But I know I was wrong, And I won't let you down.

(Oh yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah, yeah I will, yes I will…)

  But I'll sing "oh"

I cry "oh"

Yeah I saw sparks,

Yeah I saw sparks,

And I saw sparks,

Yeah I saw sparks,

Singing out.

La, la, la, la, oh…

La, la, la, la, oh…

La, la, la, la, oh…

La, la, la, la, oh…

:3

kristopher  dedicated this song to me♥

for spiral(:

OMFG LOL LOL LOL LOL

as i see it ...u have become more important in my life

can it be?

your all i need to push me trough the light..

i wish i were more in yoour heart i wish....i had something more for you♥

yo soi una amiga tal como todos

yo no soi por andar de chismosa

*oh andar BREINDO AL BOCOTA!

*pero 

*solo lo hice por mi amiga

*porke trate lo que pude con ayudarla

*la neta

*si yo estubiera en ese etsado

*yo estubiera en las peored condiciones yo eh pasado por el dolor

*i tu tmb

*yo se como se siente

*i tu tmb ocuparias el apoyo de alguien

*yo no lo ago por peliar 

*yo solo kiero arreglar esta cosa que nomas nos esta separando a todos

OMFG IM IN SO MUCH PAIN!

VANESSA land of down and under-- I TRIED BEINGNORMAL BUT I DIDNT LIKED IT doubeliveinloveafterlove says:
*pos es q la vdd
*nosavia
*pero
*me akava
*d desir unas cosas
     ★               ジェイデン         ★     says:
*>.>
VANESSA land of down and under-- I TRIED BEINGNORMAL BUT I DIDNT LIKED IT doubeliveinloveafterlove says:
*pero nose
*es q nose si desirte]
*la vdd
*yono me quiero meter
*el alexis save
*el es parte
*d eso
*nadamas se q nola kiso
*y cosas asi
     ★               ジェイデン         ★     says:
*lo que me cai de amadre
*es si tiene los huevos de hacer otras COSAS
*porke nomas la esta haciendo sufrir!
*el no sabe lo que ella esta sufriendo
*yo si!
*por eso me dad en la madre!
*ami i ala rose nos duele un putero mirarla asi
*i a ustedes les vale!
VANESSA land of down and under-- I TRIED BEINGNORMAL BUT I DIDNT LIKED IT doubeliveinloveafterlove says:
*yase asta yole dije la neta  pero yono la conosco pero tu novio me dijo aka q lloro y pss yole dije al ham y el aka me vale nose asi fue tmb con migo
*aii yono la conosco pero aun nome vale
*aun q creo q me deveria dar igual pero como ami tmb me iso lo mismo es por eso q nomevale
     ★               ジェイデン         ★     says:
*si pero porke hace esas mamadas
*de que la mira haci i dise bueno vamos a estar bn
*si cre el estupido
*ke es para ke se mire el bn i todos ya no se enojen con el
*esta mui ekivokado porke solo empeora las cosas
VANESSA land of down and under-- I TRIED BEINGNORMAL BUT I DIDNT LIKED IT doubeliveinloveafterlove says:
*pss lo q me dijo ase ratito q yole pregunte
*q si tenia novia por q segun me avia dicho q noy me dijo ase como 15 mins nome acuerdo
*y luego le dije
*pss q ami me dijieron otra cosa
*y dijo es qla vdd es me da cosa ya le dije q n
*o pero
*se ase
*la q no entiende y saka otras cosas y es una rogona
*y q apenas llevamos un mes
*y q me dijo q aun aii tiempo
*para estar bn por q estamos chikitos
*y qnose q
*pero segun q yale va acortar la onda sepa lavdd nole creo todo lo q me dise

WTFo.o

i was looking trough my photos and i found a really rare picture of me its not rare gosh i sound like i were a Pokemon or something>.< but i look alot like loana

just a dream -.-

DEC-21

i was there and you too,we would walk but there would be nothing else than a white snowy  background  it was kind of scary.since i was holding your hand i could feel you trembling you were scared as well as i was.You grabbed me close to you and you wouldn't let go off me.you told me it would be alright but i kept wondering were we were all along  and what was gonna happen there was no one around it felt cold all of a sudden we were standing in snow everything was covered in snow.as i let go off you i looked all around   there was nothing!but then i saw a red light coming closer all the time i could see how the white snow started to melt and turned black you grabbed a hold of my arm and ran with me you started to dig a hole and you  put me in there desperately  you said goodbye told me i was everything for you and kissed me

it was all a dream*O*

ps..i was hearing Gorillaz-mañana this made me cry while i talked with spiral
           ♥         ★               ジェイデン         ★               ♥     says:
*but i know my dad will eventually die
*but i mean i dont want him to die
*i love him alot
*even though
*i migth not mean alot to him
*cuz he always wanted me out of his life
*and he would always scream at me uselesss shit
Pancake says:
*Im sorry your dad drinks
           ♥         ★               ジェイデン         ★               ♥     says:
*i love him alot no matter what
Pancake says:
*I know you do
           ♥         ★               ジェイデン         ★               ♥     says:
*and i dont want u to end up this way


         
           ♥         ★               ジェイデン         ★               ♥     says:
*thats the reason christina left too
*he would always get drunk and try to hit my mom
*he would always scream at me
*yell 
*he would see     me 
*he would see how weak i was
      ♥         ★               ジェイデン         ★               ♥     says:
*but he still go after me 
Pancake says:
* And id Visit
*I remember how you guys were
*He loves you alot
*Dads suck at showing love
*What?
*Why didnt you tell me?
*Im so sorry jade
           ♥         ★               ジェイデン         ★               ♥     says:
*one day
*i would always remember this
*my dad got really drunk
*and changed his attitude into aggresive
*and he would salways wanna start a figth over something really stupid
Pancake says:
*But its not your fault jade
           ♥         ★               ジェイデン         ★               ♥     says:
*so he said im tired of everyone 
*he went into the ktichen and grabbed a knife
*i was really scaared
*i thougth he would strike my mom with it
*so i told him stop!!!
*stop doing this to us
*and i got infront of my moms leg i was sitting down on the floor
*i was like 6 or 7
*and he would shut me up
*he would be screaming at me while playing around with the knife
*so my mom told us to leave to the room but i didnt wanted to
*leave her alone
*so my mom went after us
*and we closeed the rest room door putting  the mattres over the door
*and  we closed the other door putting  something else
*and we slept in the floor
*my dad said if u dont come  out ill kill my self
*so i immediatley ran towards the matress and wanted to get it out of the way
* my mom said no te salgas jadine something like that
*so i went out and my mom too
*she went after me
*but my dad had nothing but red stuff dripping from his wrists
*it looked so real i just didnt know what to do 
*i went towards him and hugged him i didnt want him to goo
*but all he did was push me back and scream at me 
*he tried to kick my mom 
* but all my mom did she threw a punch so i pretended he had hit me i couldnt do anything to help her out i was weak i was just a  little girl.
*and i was layed there on the floor crying
*and my moms was all like ves lo ke le hiciste ala nina oscar!!
*la golpiaste
*so my mom took me my dad stayed there but i only did it so they could stop
*at first he was just saying he didnt hit me nothing had ahppend but then he kind of regret it he was crying my name and telling me to come back outisde
*since that day i knew he would always be like this
*all my neighbors knew i had probs
*and it would really hurt me knowing i didnt had a normal family like toher kids
*who went out to trips
*or to eat at dinners
Pancake says:
*Im so sorry jade
           ♥         ★               ジェイデン         ★               ♥     says:
*i never had that 
*i would always have the nigth o clock of a drunken father
*yelling at her daugthers
*having police over to calm  him down
*have people stariing at her with misery id hated that
*so know u know why christina left
*i was thinking one day of commiting suicide
Pancake says:
*i wont ever drink again jade and ill do it for you
           ♥         ★               ジェイデン         ★               ♥     says:
*but somehow cluadia managed to call me
*(member claudia) and i thankher alot
*she was crying on the phone
*and she was telling me to not kill myself
*because with out her she wouldnt go on
*i had been her very closest friend
*she needed me she too has probs of her own 
*so i knew thats its not stoping but going on
*not only i needed help but so did my friends and so did you
*she stoped me from commiting suicide
*i was gonna drink my moms pills
Pancake says:
*no jade!
*please if you ever feel like it gets too bad tell me and ill get you out
  Pancake says:      
*dont leave me i cant have you die please
           ♥         ★               ジェイデン         ★               ♥     says:
*but claudiamade me think about it
*and jona too
*there had been problems not that long
*and he got me out of it
Pancake says:
*yes i remember
           ♥         ★               ジェイデン         ★               ♥     says:
*plz christian
*i dont want u to have ur kid
*ur little jade
*and she going trougth this problems
*i want her to have her loving father
Pancake says:
*jade im serious if you ever need to leave tell me and ill help you
           ♥         ★               ジェイデン         ★               ♥     says:
*that will take her out with her loving mother having fun 
*wow
*im hearing el manana by gorillaz and 
*it made me cry 
*jaja 
*im kinda sad nowxD
*its funny tough
*im really glas i have u tough
Pancake says:
*why dont you ever tell me!
*jade i want so badly to be there for you
*my kid?
*i will love my little jade
*your not alone
*please im always here
*u know how to find me
*you have my number my email my address
*and most of all im more than willing to help you
           ♥         ★               ジェイデン         ★               ♥     says:
*thankyou(L)

the scar i showed you on my hand it was from a cigarette i was about to smoke when i got mad at you and i said no and i burned my hand it hurt for a month it didn't heal righti still have cigarettes but i havent smoked i keep them to remind me of the mistakes Ive made♥;'(